one year ago ( repost)

( while we were on day two of school, my mind was also here).
. Today was beautiful and breezy…
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The Mass of the Angels for Matthew was so very touching and sweet. When we walked into the church, right in front of the altar was our little Matthew’s Casket. It was placed on a soft blue satin sheet next to a statue of the Blessed Mother and a Crucifix. His casket was handcrafted by The Trappist Monks and made from Red Oak. It was a simple casket with a little cross on the top with his name engraved on it. We went to look at it on Saturday, and I’ve been a mess ever since. Seeing the casket up at the altar started the tears as we made our way to the front pew.

John’s parents did the readings for the Mass and our children took the gifts up to Father for the Offertory. As the children approached Father, Moonbeam was overcome with emotions and then I of course followed. Father Richard’s Homily was lovely and comforting of course. He reminded us that Matthew is now able to look into the very eyes of God and if we could only see the joy in heaven right now we would not weep, but rejoice to see him in such glory. When Mass ended, we followed Matthew’s casket out of the church.

We drove out to the cemetery for the final blessings, prayers, and goodbyes to Matthew. While his time here on earth was short, we celebrated the time God gave to us. Now we are left with empty arms and heavy hearts, we know in time will heal. Matthew and our other little children, Luke, Mark, and Karoline, who are already in the Presence of God, will intercede for us until we meet again.

We want to thank all who were able to be with us today, to include a dear friend who drove two hours with her children and one of Matthew’s NICU Nurses as well the Social worker both from Wilford Hall where Matthew received amazing care. We want to thank Nana and Guka ( John’s parents from Georgia) for keeping our children and driving them across the Southeast and back. To all who joined us in spirit today, we thank you too.

On the back of Matthew’s Holy Cards, we printed part of the song we sing in Mass.. City of God…. After losing Matthew, this song has played in the back of my mind……

……I can’t tell you how empty we feel, but God will heal us and we turn our sadness into dancing…..

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Matthew’s NICU nurse spent quite a bit of time with Matthew creating beautiful keepsakes for us of his hands and feet. She made molds and prints for us. She also made little cards of his feet for the tables for the reception. A real treasure for us.
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This tiny Red Oak Cross matches the one on his little 24″ Casket. It was a gift from the Trappist Monks.
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Thank you Charlotte and children for the beautiful Willow Tree Memory Box. It is beautiful.
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1. Awake from your slumber! Arise from your sleep!
A new day is dawning for all those who weep.
The people in darkness have seen a great light.
The Lord of our longing has conquered the night.

Refrain: Let us build the city of God.
May our tears be turned into dancing.
For the Lord our light and our love has turned the night into day.

2. We are sons of the morning; we are daughters of day.
The One who has loved us has brightened our way.
The Lord of all kindness has called us to be
a light for all people to set their hearts free.

3. God is light; in God there is no darkness.
Let us walk in the light. God’s children one and all.
O comfort my people make gentle your words,
proclaim to my city the day of her birth.

4. O city of gladness now lift up your voice,
proclaim the good tidings that all may rejoice.

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5 thoughts on “one year ago ( repost)

  1. Your strength and faith in God is inspirational! God bless you all and God bless Matthew. I’m confident he has a special job in heaven that only he could do and that is why God needed him back so soon.

    That is one of my favorite hymns!

  2. You’ve been in my thoughts and prayers the past few weeks as I knew this would be a difficult time. Blessings to your whole sweet family.

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